toast.

Tonight was quite good..

"I thought it was about cereal!"
Puhaha.

i might be wrong.

Ahh..
I feel that the air around me has been way too thin lately.
I don't really know what's happening.
I know what I feel.
But do I know what any other single person feels?
No.
Unfortunately.

On the south side of memories
I seem to remember
A conversation lost to my reveries
A day in this November

orange days.

Ah, turkey day.
Ironically enough, I don't like turkey too much.
But still, it must eat it.

distance.

I seem to find that the shower is the perfect place for me to do my thinking.
But, when I actually get there, I find the water drops are too distracting.

As far as I got tonight was..
"How can something with no color be so colorful at the same time. How can something with no color be so colorful at the same time. How can something with no color be so colorful at the same time. How can something with no color be so colorful at the same time..."
The water kept making my head start over again.
Making even a simple question impossible to answer.

Color isn't about the spectrum of light and whatnot really.
It's more about imagination, you know?
Meaning. Metaphors. Stories.
The most colorful thing I have is in...
Gray.
Black.
And white.

change is for the exciting, the bored and the brilliant.

I decided to spruce up the look of this blog a bit.

I'd say it looks good.
But from my perspective I'm not sure if I'm right.

Either way, it's staying for the moment.

Thanks to... some guy from deviantART for the picture I used in the header.

Now I'm going to get going and do what I had previously promised.
Plus watch Mythbusters.

arrogance? or just some kind of.. force field that blocks things that make sense?

Hmm..
It seems that even if something shouldn't make sense, but it rhymes, it makes sense in that weird way. You know? For example..

For longing all of the above
Steps to take
Along this chain of events
I can't believe I have to get up in the morning and rake.. =/

Well, I think that would've made sense either way.
Bad example.
But I don't retract what I said.

It's always when we think of the best ideas, it's too late to do anything about them.
And it seems to be true.
Good ideas can come regularly.
But those great ideas.. The ones that really don't have any meaning anymore..
It's a shame that they don't get to be used.

I think.
A lot.
More than usual it seems.
Maybe I'm trying to figure something out.
And I'm just unaware.
Well, if it were true, I'd be aware now, wouldn't I?

I'm hungry, thirsty and not quite tired at all.
But I'm going to go take care of all of those things right quick.

Cheers.

"I have turned out to be a terrific liar. Only in situations that call for it, of course."

cold feet in a hot shower.

I don't quite know what to talk about, but I felt it was time to just.. talk.

Let's see..
Ah!
A few stories that I never got to tell anyone.
Now is a good a time as ever.

This here should tell you the kind of person I am.
Ok, so I was choking on something a few weeks ago.
And my first reaction was to start laughing about it.
So, I'm sitting there unable to breath, but laughing hysterically.
I wonder what the other people in the area thought about me.
Heh.

But here's the story I really wanted to tell.
So I took my mum to the hospital for some.. thing.. I don't even remember what.
I was going to stay in the car and wait, but I had the impression it'd be awhile, and I'd left my phone at home. So I went inside to wait.
There was this woman there..
She didn't look in too good of shape.
But she came up to me and said, "Dang, I love your shirt!"
Naturally it featured Donkey Kong..
We talked about trivial things for awhile, but after sometime I said, "So what're yuh in for? ;)"
And she told me this amazing story about here illness.
Supposedly she wasn't able to take any nutrients from any of the food she ate.
Most of the story is a blur...
But what has always stood out in my mind was the last five minutes.
"I'm going to die" she said.
I tried my best to convince her that she would be able to find some help, though I didn't believe it myself. Just moments before I had to go she told me, "You know what? You're a good person..."
I smiled, and she said "Don't ever lose your smile either."
My mom came out and went to the car, I gestured that I'd be there in a moment.
I said my goodbyes, once again trying to reassure her that there was hope.
But as we both knew, there wasn't any more hope than there was 5 minutes ago.
"No matter where I end up, I'm always going to remember you and this talk" she said with a smile. As the doors closed behind me she said again, "I will always remember you."
I never knew her name.
Nor will I ever.
But that will stay with me forever.
Assuming she's passed on.. May she rest peacefully.

rain drops.

It's raining.

I'd love to fall asleep to the soft drops as usual, but my mind isn't ready to rest just yet.
I have determined something though..
I want everyone to call me 'Jeffrey' from here on out.
It's more visually appealing than 'Jeff'.
And for only that simple reason.

Last night didn't yield any interesting dreams..
Though.
My friend told me of a dream she had around the same night.
And it seemed to share a lot of similarities with mine..

You know, it makes me think..
Maybe some peoples minds are connected somehow.
Maybe.

Dreams just seem to be your mind trying to tell you something that you haven't figured out yet.
Our brains know more than we do.
And the only time we have to talk with our brain is in dreams..
But must it be so cryptic?

dreams.

I swear I had at least four distinct dreams last night..

The first one was outstandingly interesting.
I had no direction at all.
This dream was.. It was so vivid.
And every second of it had the atmosphere of a nearing apocalypse..
The sky was a dark blue, but glowing and pulsing.
And the air was thick and cumbersome..

I can only remember a few of the parts so clearly..
But I remember I felt like I was being destroyed from the inside..

The most vivid part was at the beginning..
I was standing in a dark room, at the only window.
It was overcast, but the sky was still that pulsing dark blue color..
And I was thinking about what would happen after my own death.
In the dream I felt it coming soon..
But I wasn't really all that afraid.
I got a call from a friend to meet him and some other friends at a hangout of ours.

Once I got there they said that they changed their minds and wanted me to go meet them at The _____ in about an hour. I had never heard of it before.. So I asked for directions, but no one gave any.

I took a few of my friends in my car and just drove.
We eventually came to a fair ground. For some reason I just stopped there. We all got out and walked through it.
There was a large amount of people there.

I turn to buy something, the man asks for an amount of money so I look down and ruffle through my money.. When I look up the man is gone, and all the sounds of the fair stopped instantly. I turned around and my friends weren't there either.. When just seconds ago the fair was colorful and alive.. Now it was all dark gray, abandoned, and it looked like no one has been in the area for a hundred years or so..

At first I was shocked.. But then.. I just kind of.. Got happy, in a dark way. I was alone with my thoughts.
And then of course I got back to thinking right where I left off..

The dream ended after a flash of light in the sky, and a soothing feeling cast over me.
No longer did I feel.. a dark burden.

It was quite a dream.
And really stood out over most of my nonsensical dreams..

Other dreams I had in the night were.. Pretty worthless.
Just a few cloudy, nonsensical dreams like usual.